No sleep tonight...

I never quite understood how anybody could enjoy a thunderstorm. I always hear people say, Oh, I love thunderstorms, they are so relaxing. Are you kidding me?
There is one nasty storm going on right now, Friday morning , August 19 at 12:28 am. I should be asleep. The thunder is so loud, it feels like it's right above my house. I am surprised my kids aren't crawling under my skin! Ok, Sam is up and walking around.
I remember when I was a girl and being terrified (ok, it's hailing now) of thunder/rain storms. I was convinced the wind was going to destroy my house and blow the rickety windows in. I thought for sure the house was going to blow over. The window panes would rattle something fierce. Many times I would get out of bed and crawl under it and pray with all my 8 year old heart out for it to stop. 'Please, Heavenly Father, make the storm stop. Or at least pass by. Please protect the house that we will be safe.'
I would wake up many mornings still under my bed. I was so glad it would be over. Maybe that's why when a storm blows through now and it starts my mind racing: please don't blow my house in, please don't destroy the windows, please don't let the dead willow tree in the back yard fall over on anyone's house, please protect my kids and don't scare them.
My nerves are on edge. I guess I hate being startled. The thunders are clapping so loud as if they are laughing at me. (Very poetic at 12:36 at night).
No sleep for me until I know it's done. When will that be? I wish I knew! I wish I had a forecast somewhere online that I can look and tell me, ok Suzie, it will be completely over at 1:03 am.
Are fears that easy to negotiate?
So...anyway, I feel like I'm rambling on and on and on. Maybe I am. Everybody here is snoring. Sam decided to sleep on the floor of my room at the floor of my bed. He does that every once in awhile. He does that when he has a hard time falling asleep. Poor guy, not very comfortable. I guess he feels safe there.
Drizzling rain now...the hail stopped. Just those damned claps of thunder once in awhile that make me jump out of my skin. Feeling very nervous and jittery.
I hope everyone has a calm night tonight. We'll see if I get any rest. Wish me luck. Good night :)